Roman Kemp reveals he considered taking his own life a year before the death of his pal Joe Lyons
Roman Kemp has revealed that he considered taking his own life in 2019.
The radio host, 28, made the heartbreaking admission on Tuesday evening in his highly effective new BBC documentary – Our Silent Emergency, which shines a mild on males’s psychological well being struggles.
Roman opened up about his own battle with suicidal ideas and revealed his perception that his mum Shirley Holliman, 58, unknowingly saved his life, a year before his greatest buddy Joe Lyons was discovered lifeless.
Psychological well being issues: Roman Kemp, 28, has revealed that he considered taking his own life in 2019 and revealed his perception that his mum Shirley unknowingly saved his life
Roman defined that in 2019 his anxiousness turned overwhelming as he struggled to take care of the pressures of his life.
He stated: ‘I used to be caught out in my mind on all the pieces: How I regarded, what I used to be doing mistaken work-wise. “Am I doing my job as a result of of who my dad is? Am I being a good boyfriend?” All these pressures simply got here on prime of me.
‘I bear in mind being in the bed room not understanding what to do. I went to the flooring on my knees round my head and simply crying, saying to myself, ‘What’s the level? Why am I carrying on?’
Roman revealed that he believes his mum, former Wham! singer Shirlie, unwittingly saved his life, after he rang her in floods of tears.
Loss: The star’s new BBC3 documentary, Our Silent Emergency, investigates male suicide and psychological well being and was impressed by the death of his buddy Joe Lyons in 2020, (left)
Shirlie drove straight to her son and ensured that the radio host’s sister Harley stayed on the cellphone to him the complete time.
Talking to his mum whereas out on a canine stroll, Roman defined about that day: ‘I simply bear in mind feeling it was an excessive amount of in my head. I do know it is actually onerous for me to let you know this.
‘That day I thought of going to the prepare station and leaping in entrance of a prepare. I am sorry I by no means instructed you that.’
Before the BBC documentary aired, Roman revealed he’s been taking antidepressants for the previous 15 years after combating suicidal ideas.
Talking in an interview on PrettyLittleThing’s Behind Closed Doors podcast, the Capital FM DJ admitted that at his lowest ebb he ‘began to hate his life and all the pieces that was taking place.’
Candid: Before the documentary aired, Roman revealed he’s been taking antidepressants for the previous 15 years after combating suicidal ideas
Roman went onto focus on the tragic death of his shut buddy Joe Lyons after fronting the BBC documentary Our Silent Emergency.
Throughout the podcast Roman stated: ‘I’ve taken for chemical despair, I’ve taken antidepressants for the better part of 15 years now, almost 15 years.
‘I’ve taken these and possibly if I do not take them or miss them or go on vacation and are available again and haven’t any, which may occur and might be very harmful, you should not not do it.
‘I kinda fell into a cycle the place I simply began to hate my life and hate all the pieces that was taking place, I felt like my life wasn’t going wherever, I felt like I used to be gonna be in bother in a while in life.
Robust: The Capital FM DJ admitted at his lowest ebb he ‘began to hate his life and all the pieces that was taking place, forward of his BBC documentary on the males’s psychological well being disaster
‘Essentially the most ridiculous issues like if I did not lower your expenses right here or are you aware what I imply and people lead me to a level which was the lowest level in my life.
‘I bear in mind I used to be simply sporting my pants and I used to be simply crying in the center of the flooring in my lounge, I did not know what to do.’
Roman added: ‘You’ve gotten ideas in your head and they’re the worst ideas doable that no human ought to be having but in addition folks want to know that these ideas are very, very regular and whenever you’re having these ideas you are not alone in these ideas, different folks undergo these ideas they usually get assist they usually attain out.
‘That I assume that is one other factor, that understanding that a lot of share of males expertise suicidal ideas.
‘The second that I went via was not a second that’s uncommon in a guys life and I believe that generally is the scary factor as a result of a man can flip round and go I should not be pondering like this however its totally regular.
Lowest ebb: Talking on Fairly Little Issues’ Behind Closed Doorways podcast, Roman stated at his lowest he was ‘crying in the center of his lounge’
‘You already know, despair is a very regular factor that I personally consider regardless of man or ladies, how outdated you might be everybody goes via a type of despair.’
Roman went onto reveal that it was a cellphone name to his mum Shirley that made him realise he wanted assist, sating: ‘It is like I solely had one door and I needed to match hundreds of these items via this door however when you make that decision, upon getting that cellphone name.
‘I used to be fortunate as a result of in that second my mum occurred to name me. I picked up the cellphone and my mum made me keep on the cellphone to her till she drove and got here to me however I do know that had I not had that dialog the door would have stayed as a single door.
‘As quickly as I spoke to my mum, all of these issues ”the door turned not solely a storage, it turned a mansion door” are you aware what I imply. All of my concepts may circulate fantastic via them and all the pieces was gonna be okay.
‘There’s two issues, even when they do not clear up the downside for you they’re now conscious of one thing that you are going via. They will verify up in a while. It’s speaking that is your primary.’
Psychological well being: In a trailer for the documentary, launched on The One Present on Thursday Roman defined how Joe (pictured) was the final particular person he thought would take his own life
Reflecting on his psychological well being now, the DJ stated: ‘I’m completely satisfied however each on occasion like everybody does you might have second the place you go ”god as we speak is absolutely s**t” you already know and also you do get misplaced in your own ideas and its vital in these moments to present your ideas perspective you already know, have some realisation.
‘The one manner you will get that’s chatting with others, our greatest enemy in life is our own mind. How I’ve already described it proper and that is the greatest manner I can put it; I can solely speak from the male perspective.
‘If you find yourself struggling mentally as a man, it looks like your mind is thrashing you up so dangerous that its like a heavy weight boxer goes one and one with you and you do not even know, you cant even punch and you do not even have any gloved, as a result of we’ve not been given as youngsters the instruments to struggle towards this heavy weight boxer.
‘Main into it, that is form of one of the issues I’ve pushed on this documentary, that it must be there the authorities wants to present the funding to have the ability to equip youngsters in colleges and train academics how one can train younger women and men.’
Roman is ready to entrance a BBC Three documentary titled Our Silent Emergency, which sees the presenter discover psychological well being disaster that has affected males lately.
It comes after he misplaced his Capital FM producer and shut buddy Joe Lyons to suicide final year.
He stated: ‘Once I misplaced Joe, I actually thought I knew what indicators in folks to search for, in somebody that was struggling.
‘Joe was proof to me that that is manner larger than that, no matter I assumed somebody who was struggling regarded like, I used to be mistaken. It turned my life the other way up.
‘If I used to be to place a line up of 20 folks all of who’re my shut mates, I might nonetheless put Joe final when it got here to who I assumed was struggling and that is why I needed to do it.
‘This movie is actually me making an attempt to assist myself selfishly, like you already know that is after I say it is a egocentric bit of work as a result of half the time I felt like I wasn’t even bothered by the digital camera as a result of that is serving to me.
‘I am understanding what has occurred to my buddy and what headspace he has been in. it has given me that type of remedy that I would like.’
Unhappy: Roman Kemp stated on The One Present on Thursday that his greatest buddy producer Joe Lyon’s suicide ‘ripped my complete life aside’ as he says ‘I felt so indignant that he by no means referred to as
In a trailer for the documentary, launched on The One Present on Thursday, Roman defined how Joe was the final particular person he thought would take his own life.
‘When you’d have lined up 20 folks you’ll have thought have been struggling mentally he [Joe] would have been the final particular person.
‘He was the happiest particular person, placing everybody forward of him. I did not know what had occurred.
‘It simply put me on this state the place I might really feel like I knew I needed to do one thing for him and for his household I assume. That is the overwhelming thought I had.’
Joe was a well-loved producer at International radio for 9 years.
After Joe’s death, Roman emotionally addressed followers on his present Sunday Greatest, which he co-hosts with his father Martin Kemp, 59, urging them to ‘attain out’.
Paying tribute to Joe, he stated: ‘Before we will begin with our regular present, you might have learn that it has been an extremely onerous week for me personally, as I misplaced my greatest buddy…
‘It has fully devastated his household, mates, me, my household. I actually wish to make it possible for I exploit this time proper now to say in case you are struggling, then please know which you can attain out…
‘There’s all the time somebody you may speak to: your loved ones, mates, colleagues… or anybody from the assist charities which can be on the market.’
For confidential assist name the Samaritans on 116123 or go to a native Samaritans department, see www.samaritans.org for particulars.
Shut: Roman (pictured with mum Shirlie, 58, centre, and pop Martin Kemp, 59, left) beforehand instructed how his mom ‘saved his life’ after he suffered a psychological well being disaster 18 months in the past
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